It's not you, it's me...

Model:  Lilred

I know that most people are probably not going to believe it, but I really haven't been shooting much over the past two years.  Back around late 2009 I pretty much had my fill of all the B.S. that was going on with this and in my life as well, so I took some time away from it all.

That doesn't mean that I didn't shoot at all though.  I did.  Heck, I even took the time to put together a Valentine's Day pinup group shoot in early 2011 (as you can see by the pic to the left).  Overall I went from shooting nearly 8 to 10 times a month down to about 1 shoot every three months (if that)

Aside from my muses Heather and Amanda (and one or two other models who were extremely persistent (yes I'm looking at you Danielle!  :D )), I wasn't actively looking to shoot with anyone.  In some cases I wasn't even returning emails.  Models were contacting me left and right but I wouldn't commit to shooting.  To really simplify it all; the fun had been completely taken out of all of this for me to the point where I seriously considered just giving it all up.  Saying I was burned out is the understatement of the year.  :)

It's only recently that I've started to actively book shoots (like, within the past month!).

If you happened to be one of those individuals, rest assured that it really wasn't you:  it most definitely was me.  It may have seemed as if I really wasn't interested, but the truth is that there was so much going on that it was impossible to juggle it all.  That's just for starters too.

It'd take me about a week to relay exactly why I wasn't even returning email messages in some cases (nevermind shooting), and although some of it I'm comfortable talking about, some of it is extremely personal so I won't be going into that aspect of it all.

Soooo.... with that said, if you were one of the many individuals who contacted me in the past two years and I didn't get back to you, please accept my apologies.

With that said, yes I am booking shoots now but there is a slight catch.

One of the reasons why I almost completely stopped two years ago is that I got overloaded big-time.  Unfortunately because this doesn't pay the bills, it means I have to work another (full time) job that does.  Like it or not that job does come first.  That means I'm pretty much limited to weekends, and because I need to have time not only to myself but to edit the work too, the most I can commit to shooting is 2-3 times a month (if I can).

Because my time is very limited I'm also being E-X-T-R-E-M-E-L-Y picky about who I will work with (more than I already am).  I'm going to save the details of this for another blog update, but to sum it up; because I have so little free time I can't afford to waste it on people who aren't serious. 

Yes I know it sucks, but that's life.  I hate it more than anyone else really, but that's the reality of it all.

Rest assured that if I already told you that I want to work with you, that means I really do want to work with you.  Because of the above though that means it may take a little longer than even I'd like, but it *WILL* happen.  :)

(About the photo above:  Although the pic above was shot back in late Jan/early Feb 2011, I only got around to editing it this week (almost a year later!).  It was taken at my "Atomic MA Pinup Valentine's Day Group Shoot" that I had held at Blue Line Studios in Lincoln, RI.).